Christine is ocming in the dark room and we are trying to be voecovert operational spies.On his records for Britain's Tru Thoughts label, Nostalgia 77 aka Ben Lamdin (listen) melds live jazz musicians, crackling funk breaks, snippets of Afrobeat and soulful vocals from hot talents like Alice Russell.Recently, however, mounting empirical evidence indicates that these justifications are illusions.Why did this terrible illness strike my children? Why me? What did my kids ever do to deserve this disease? Why couldn't they just been born healthy 'regular' kids? Why am I here on earth at all? Can I make it through, not just taking care of one child with 'special needs', but two or three? Do I have the strength to do this job as a single mom? Why don't people understand what I'm going through? How can I show people a way to treat my kids with respect? Will my kids ever say, "I Love You, Mom"? Will my kids always be in diapers? Will I ever have a life of my own again? Will they eve